what can i create when my world view is bleak

I have no one and nothing

or maybe just a few people who I never see

I sleep on the futon because it’s easier for me

I try and pretend that the world cradles me

Nurturing me, Knowing me

I feel so alone

Isolated

Will I ever find my family beyond blood

Will I ever make anything good enough

Thank you

I will pretend you will read this

and you will see me again